Enough

I don’t know about you, but I find myself complaining more these days than I ever have. I am worn out, run-down, and over it all. At least, that’s the mantra I’m tempted to repeat to myself.  Still, despite it all, I have this sense in my soul that God is doing something in me, preparing me for something. Impatient as I am, I wish He would just get on with it. 

Groan. Complain. Feel guilty about groaning and complaining. Repeat.

Have you ever been there? If so, you are definitely not alone. 

Hi. My name is Callie and I’m a follower of Jesus who strives to be like him and often finds myself falling short. I’m a pastor’s wife, and mom of 3 children (ages 10, 13, and almost 16).  

I also teach 5th and 6th-grade science and 5th-grade social studies at a small rural school. I wear many hats, some of which I have chosen to wear and others that have been placed upon me. I dream of being able to stay at home, grow my own food, and make my own clean-living products and natural remedies while raising my children and a whole plethora of animals. 

But instead, I find myself right where God has placed me and trying to be content with it. 

This morning, while I was reading my Bible and drinking my coffee laced with MCT oil (because, let’s face it, I dream of being skinny, too), I found myself in Exodus 2. The Pharaoh who knew and trusted Joseph, a Hebrew, had died and the Israelites were multiplying in the land of Egypt. Their sheer numbers were beginning to intimidate the new guy in charge so he began to treat them harshly through forced labor and making life miserable for them. It got so bad he was even telling midwives to kill the Hebrew boys when they were born so that their numbers would stop increasing (And I have the audacity to complain about my life…insert eye roll here). The Israelites, with good reason, being oppressed by the Egyptians, were groaning and crying out to the Lord (v.23). 

I’ve been there…groaning, crying out, complaining…struggling to be content knowing that I have a good reason not to be. Maybe you have too.

When I was reading, verses 24-25 seemed to leap off the pages. 

In Exodus 2:24-25, it says:

“God heard their groaning, and God remembered his covenant with Abraham, with Isaac, and with Jacob. God saw the Israelites, and God knew.”

God heard. God saw. God knew. Maybe you need to hear that today. God hears you. God sees you. And God knows. He knows what you’re dealing with. He knows your struggles. He knows where you are and where you’d like to be. He knows your reality and he knows your dreams. Most importantly, he knows exactly what you need. And maybe for today, we can let that be enough.